壓力

除了壓力 還是壓力
不知道這份工作 是不是 適合我
但 確定的是 我不喜歡
我很想 丟下那封信 但卻 沒勇氣
其中一個原因 是 同事們都滿不錯的
但 工作性質 好像 不是我喜歡的

家人 反對我辭職
我很想 回到 教育方面的工作
但 他們都不 贊成
有股衝動 很想到國外 闖一闖

I just wanna to shout out that What I'm Thinking actually
Feel very stress and maybe I'm the person that can't deserve the stress
Sometimes I thought that I'm suit to be a normal staff like assistant but not to handle so much things
But I knew that this is impossible and everyone have their own stress and many things to handle
and this, I will not learn anything and grow up
Maybe, this is the very first time I stepped into the serious working life and I have not prepared well for the job.

But the main point is, I suffered and depressed every day even after work. I will scare what will happen on the next day and seriously I do not like to talk with the suppliers. Besides, I eager for the job that the top management assign me the task and I can handle it without depend on third parties. It will be my perfect dream job but I know it is impossible.

I want to change job and try other industry for instance to work with related industry that I studied. My current job is totally different with what I studied. I understand that most of the people involved in their job are not same or related with their study, but I really hope to start the job which I have the basic knowledge within the job and not like current job that I suffer almost everyday.

Really!